FP

My whole life I never really struggled to make friends? I always easily adapt, but gravitate towards certain people over others.

I feel like for the past few years I lost that part of me, I also forgot I was capable of it.

I noticed I can have a group of friends…but I put certain people on pedestals compared to others. Ive always had a “FP” (favorite person, bpd thing) my whole life. It really took me a while to notice the pattern though.

If the FP leaves my life…they’re clearly replaceable. I’m not even bitter or feel sad about it after I mourn the loss of the person from my life.

The difference in the past few years, compared to before that, and now..is I chose people who brought out the good in me before. I am again.

I think I’m fine with losing toxic people from my life, and I’m at peace with the fact that I’ve been that toxic person before as well.