Category: ocean

Closed& Opening

I closed at work tonight. which was highly annoying to be honest. Yet mentally manageable at least.

Meanwhile the dude who was supposed to close with me, left with like 40 people still in the building…so left me with a broken mic, stuck at the front desk unable to leave and tell people we are closed. In a fucking massive gym. This isn’t Boston Sports Club bud. Get the next bus…

It was lame.

I have to open now though too.

So I took an adderall to keep me going.

(I’ve always had a soft spot for them)

Reminders

A lot of my favorite photos seem to remind me of my ex so much. Which in turn, makes me write about him a lot. I can’t tell if its therapeutic or unhealthy.

It is indeed, though…. better than venting and crying on the shoulder of someone who’s in love with you.

Birthday Beach Bumb

For three years my ex kept promising me we would go to coney island for my birthday. I actually believed him, which sucks..I thought at least someday?

Instead a day or so before my birthday he ran off from his sober house, after coming to visit me. I had a feeling that might happen. So he relapses after about two months…I just remember facetiming him at the ER. He wanted to come to my apartment for the night, I couldn’t do that though (and my mom and his dad told me not to) I did whatever convincing I could do, and he went back to detox.

No Coney Island, just wasted effort and your sick idea of love.

But my best friend took me to “half moon beach” which was nice of her. At least one person made an effort. I am truly thankful for that

Have a nice trip 🖖🏻

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It makes me sad and it makes me mad. I miss you & I hate you.