Back Bay Fens

I was looking at a post of the “Best places in Boston for fall foliage”

& I knew I had the right idea of where I choose to live, no matter how many weird looks I’ve gotten for it.

I realized when I think about it I’m highly picky about where I live.

See, I like to be as far away from my hometown as possible. Like Somerville, Cambridge and Arlington are all too close for me.

But I also wouldn’t live in any other place besides Boston if I live in MA. I will never live in New Humpshire, Maine, Connecticut, Rhode Island..I’m just not cut out for that sheet. Vermont and New York are the closest Id stay. Would never live in Florida, its a zoo. California is overrated and over populated in my mind..they can just float right away.

A girls fucking choosey apparently

For now Ill be catching the dope foliage in my favorite part of the city

Expectations

I learned this in my last relationship. If you are aware you are dating someone who has issues or makes your life stressful, you are aware enough to NOT make that decision.

Since its MY choice who I date, I should be able to handle it. Same with everyone else. Im not fighting for or over something that isn’t worth all the energy.

If I had expectations of a man who has patterns or behaviors that he’s had most of his life…I’d be just as miserable as all his exes hiding “in my backyard”

When Im going through a shitty situation

But I’m trying to make the best of it because its essentially out of my control.

So when I had a doctors appointment to fill my meds I kept saying “Its okay”

…and my primary care doctor keeps telling me “nooo, its not okay!”

….YA I KNOW ITS NOT…fuck…but should I be thinking like that?! would that help me?

good lawd. Its called DBT sis. Its my most important form of medication.

Appreciation

For some reason one of my favorite things about myself is that Im a hard worker and always have been. (As long as I give a shit, or have a reason to)

So when my new manager told me to “enjoy my day off because I deserve it” I felt so good inside.

Even if I know I don’t deserve it probably… It was sweet

Highly gratifying

When I get to tell the b*tch wife of a cop, who wants free cover that they are not considered “first responders” here. $60 bucks you wankers.

Listen lady, I’m not gonna tell you HOW I REALLY FEEL. I’ll spare you, but I will never let a police officer, especially in Boston, free cover.

She wanted to talk to my manager, as if I was gonna budge. (nope)

so I pointed him out to her and gave her his name (crossing my fingers inside that I was right 😂) and then she comes back in, followed by my manager…who was laughing and says “I told her no, we only call them”

Until I see a cop “serve and protect” like a good person, not a selfish, calculated, dirty troll… I know what Ive seen. They aren’t helping anyone. Boston cops are historically dirty cops, its not just a stigma. (don’t even get me started on the rich, bored suburban cops outside Boston also)

*We only call them so they can bring a paddy wagon and 3 cop cars, then walk around looking at the stars for 20 minutes and leave*